I WOULD HAVE SOLD MY SOUL 🤯

ZC NATION

Hello love birds

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I say that with so much love in my heart & eyes.

Love you guys.

Another Mondayyyy.

Today was beautiful in LA.

74° F, clear skies & sunny ☀️

It was giving.

I drove out from my garage with Tems playing on the radio & thought…

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“Wow, I’m really glad to be alive”

& guys… let me tell you, what a feeling.

I feel when you’ve been down so long or in a deep dark place for some time, days like today can take your breath away.

Like goodness I’m really here.

God really chose to give me another chance.

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You know?

Well anyway…

Today is sort of a prequel to a topic I will further elaborate on in a future blog.

I felt as always, it’d be best to start with me.

What would I have sold my soul for?

When I was 19 & just entering Hollywood…

I would’ve done anything for a movie role.

I remember hearing things about what some of the A List actors did or needed to do to bag the roles they bagged & thinking…

“Well I’d do that if I had to”

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I’m just being honest.

That’s where I was at the time.

I wanted it that badly.

& I was young enough to not deepen the importance of having a moral code.

It’s a blessing to not get WHAT you want

WHEN you want

Now in my 30’s…

I’m finally beginning to understand that NOT getting what you want WHEN you want it is really Gods protection.

It takes a very long time to come to this realization.

Even at times I still wrestle with this truth.

But I know it’s true.

Young Artists

It’s so unfortunate to witness young artists full of life & dreams when they’re younger become dull & seemingly lifeless in their adult age due to what they’ve been through in the industry.

When you’re young yourself their lives look like paradise.

Achieving your dreams so young?

Thats what dreams are made of.

When in all actuality there are principalities and power of darkness at the top of the food chain who hijack young Godly & talented spirits by holding them hostage in the pursuit of their dreams.

It’s sad that a lot of the people at the top who have the power to elevate ppl's careers tend to abuse their powers.

& it’s even more sad that when one is younger, they typically know no better!

When I was 19 I knew it would be wrong to sell my body for my dreams.

But when you think that all your favs did the same to get where they are you begin to normalize it the process.

It’s as if for the first ever time you realize…

***& forgive me for my “vulgarity”***

“Oh. That’s it?”

“That’s all selling your soul is”

The severity of it is minimized for a chapter of time.

In my experience the dark side & selling your soul was always sold as something so scary that when you grow up & really deep the fact that it’s simply compromising the morals you’re already unsure of for capital gain….

You think it’s not so bad.

Well I did.

In & Out

For me, during the course of my life my Christianity has wavered.

Ive always known there was good & evil & that God was good.

But I’ve had many points of weakness, confusion & trust issues in regards to why I saw bad things continue to happen to good people despite serving a living & breathing God.

This is why the Bible says:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart    and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways submit to him,    and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Bc we are constantly learning till the day we die & God already knows the things we will go through in our lifetimes will confuse us.

But with time you begin to realize that it truly is written.

The Bible is the greatest book ever written.

It articulates everything that’s reiterated in different ways in every other religion.

It’s knows & has an answer for all things.

It’s all powerful.

But this is life & we’re here to learn.

Sometimes the hard way.

I thank God tremendously that I grew up with a mum whose faith is unwavering.

But I still have no idea where my life would’ve taken me if I was given an opportunity to become famous at a young age.

With the new documentary out on HBO aka

We see the things that happened to some of the Nickelodeon child stars.

Granted those things weren’t their fault.

But they had to do some very illegal & demonic things at the hands of fame.

Which they had no idea about.

At 19 for a movie role if I had been out in a certain situation & promised a career for it I can’t lie to you idk where I’d be today.

Probably somewhere extremely broken.

Regretful.

Spiritually bankrupt.

& trapped.

Thankfully

Thankfully today I wouldn’t sell my soul for a $100 zillion!

There’s nothing like accomplishing things on your own terms.

On Gods terms.

There’s no amount of money that can buy you that freedom and peace of mind.

& often times those trapped in the cycle of spiritual misconduct due to selling their souls feel very trapped by their handlers.

Feeling like there’s no way out.

I’m glad that though it has taken me a little longer to accomplish my dreams, I can honestly & proudly say that it’s because I’m doing this with Jesus.

So it’s gonna take me a little longer.

I’m happy for it to be that way.

So ZC NATION…

Make sure you let me/us know in the comments your thoughts & opinions on this matter.

Have you always known about the dark world?

Was there anything you would’ve your soul to achieve prior to aging & knowing better?

I wanna know.

Ps: In the latest blog "Turning A Blind Eye To Cheating" I recorded audio.

I will add audio to this one tomorrow.

I'd love to know your thoughts & feelings on the audio edition.

That’s all for now my angels.

I hope you enjoyed this blog & I’ll see you in the next one.

Confidentially,

Baby Z